25 February 2004

heart full of herbs

Today while shopping for Ayyam-i-Ha gifts, I ran across one of those pillows filled with lavendar and other scented herby things that you can warm up and put on varioud body areas to relieve things. It was shaped like a heart and velvety. Mmm...

This morning I went to the doctor and I was sort of excited but also a little nervous. Nathan came along to support me, but of course he couldn't come into the examination room.

I thought that the doctor might be a woman, since the nurse who took care of me was, and I imagined she was also my doctor, but then when he came in, I forgot that doctors don't do that blood pressure stuff...

Anyhow, the examination was okay, and I didn't feel uncokfortable or anything, but afterwards, I felt like a cow, or some other sort of livestock. Not that I was white and spotty, but I felt like the doctor had no concern for me as human, but just wanted to finish his job and be done with it.

I suppose I expected a different atmosphere - one where I felt heard. I wanted to ask questions, but I didn't feel comfortable to do that.

Anyhow, I was able to sit with these feelings today and sort them out, in a nice relaxed manner. It was nice. And now I am able to articulate them to you!

Oh, by the way, my examination was normal, and I will be going in to get another ultrasound in about a month, so I can check on my ovaries and see if they're normaler. :)

6 comments:

Jessica said...

I'm sick today, and stayed home from school. While vegging out in theliving room I listened to a radio program called Native American Calling. This man from the Northern Cheyenne Rez. in Montana was talking about conventional doctors and hospitals and the lack of human concern etc... And now I hear you, and remember experiences of my own, and realize how true it is.

Jessica said...

My bad - I totally forgot to say that I'm glad you were able to find out that there's nothing seriously wrong. Glad to hear it!

Mara said...

Unfortunately, it's not just men or someone who isn't in touch with their spirituality [not that you accused this man of not being spiritual].

The absolute worst treatment I ever got was from a female doctor. I sat in a completely empty waiting room for at least an hour while I watched her walk around her office eating Kit Kats (it was 10 years ago!). Once I finally got put into a room, I then waited another 15 minutes at least. Finally, I walked out. She called my mother to tell her that I was no longer welcome in her office - for which she got a HUGE earful from my mother. [Go Momma!] (my mother had dropped me off to have lunch w/ a friend around the corner, thinking I'd join them in a little bit, only to see me 2 hours later in tears)

Also, here, we have a wonderful cardiologist who has graciously agreed to be our physician at the Baha'i World Centre. Unfortunately, he's a CARDIOLOGIST. Not always exactly in tune to our needs... it can happen to the best of us. :-)

Joe said...

My Mommy got me a towel set with penguins eating sno-cones (is that copyrighted?), a stud finder for my Dad, and some educational software for Sarah as Ayyam-i-Ha presents. I was extremely pleased with my gift, which I opened after eating some nummy White Chili that Mom worked on for a long time to make. This South Beach Diet seems to be a really good thing. I like veggies!

katie said...

Liz! I'm glad you are healthy and can celebrate Ayyam-i-Ha without worries of that sort. That heart full of herbs sounds awfully familiar...thank you...I love it! Much love!

missmartha said...

I used Kate's heart full of herbs today on my tight neck muscles that got all balled up in a midterm and havent relaxed for two days. it was divine! i love the smell and putting it on my face too.
I like Dr. Shankar at McKinley. You can request specific doctors and always have the same one. i have also dined at dr. cifeuentez' house but i cant spell his name. he is an interesting cat but I have never had him treat me.